Back of a taxi tear pooling on the rim of sunglasses so tired so spent running to get a car rental togo to a funeral that I don’t care about anymore becuse she’s gone but my nephews are alive and suffering and my mother and sister are in pain but still divided between what’s best for them and what’s best for Sis. Sis is so sick saying her child is evil and the bi le says its ok to beat the demons out of him he’s only three and now the 1 year old is getting beaten and they called social services but they can’t say everything oh no because she’ll go to jail and she needs help so the worker is talking abiut anger classes but church (thank god) says she needs hosital therapy and drugs. And because u’m the driver I have to get the car and therr are no trains in my hood. In taxi ans wanted to send money and do toes but instead driving to funeral for one who feels no pain while maribelle whines about missing her program because I asked her tio make breakfast and god she was like there is no food and I had to go and show her everything and she still pouts about her show while I run around to do things to take her to the funeral when all I want to do is get money to my mom becsuse I can’t turn back time and I can’t change the insanity of sis but hey a little somethung for groceries or a toy to distract for a mii nute from the pain of the bruises on their little bodies. Hurt so much and thank you for reading my meltdown.
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cry in the wilderness
I don’t know if he had shots. I don’t know if he’s sick (not till Wednesday). I don’t know what he was fed. And he needs a bath. I don’t know his age. I don’t know why they had gender confusion with him and called him Flo at first.
I know he’s afffectionate. I know he likes to follow us around. I know that he hasn’t scratched anything yet. And after last night, I know he loves his new toy.
anticlimatic
After 7 years of fighting with ms. Scaredofcats, there is now a cat in the house.apparently josie had a cat and it escaped ans was roaming the neighborhood until it was found by mikey today and she brought it home.
I don’t even know how it looks like but I am in serious giggles of the idea of mikey alone with a cat. She’s called twice anxiously asking when I’ll be home.
I may take the long way home.
saturday roundup
Turns out the forms sent o me by the clinic are a request to get the disposal forms. Filled them out and sent them.
Spent the morning at the beach and now am at a Met game. Last minute opportunity.
Ok if this is the way I am going to blog then I should just twitter
PMS
I am sooo PMSing. I just want everyone around me to just shut up and leave me alone so i can do all the things I need to do. I need to register Mikey and me for this conference. I had to book her flight to visit her mom earlier. I gave the first of my recommendations to my pastor yesterday. EEEEEK! I need more meetings. I hate having to cut one meeting out for couple’s therapy. Only been to one this week and one tomorrow. I suggested going to the beach saturday but I feel too fat and ugly to go because I gained all the weight I lost last month and my knees hurt and I got cramps and I move and waddle and why would I want to subject the public to seeing me in a bathing suit? I bit Mikey’s head off and I don’t care. My teeth are oversensitive to cold and I hate life.
And then there is The Decision.
Saturday Scattergories
SCATTERGORIES - it’s harder than it looks! Play here or play on your blog. (note to those new to the game: these don’t have to be actual truths. If it helps- replace the word “you” in the questions & substitute it with “someone”.) Play on!
Take the first letter of your favorite beverage and use it to answer the following:
1) What is your favorite beverage? Tea
2) Something you would grill? T-bone steak
3) Something you would wave? Train Ticket
4) Something you would fight for? Territory (usually in bed)
5) Something you would celebrate? Thanksgiving
6) Something you would whisper to Ben Franklin? “Turkey?!? You’ve been flying your kite in the rain too long.”
7) Something your neighbors would bring to the party? Tapas
8 ) Something that makes you see fireworks? Twilight
9) Something that is located in Washington, D.C.? Tourists
10) Something red or white or blue? Turnips
To Post
- There’s the post on how my sponsor suggested that I work my steps in relation to my relationship.
- There’s the post on how I’m scared that I’ve become everything for Mikey, her number 1 when she can’t be my number 1. (You see many moons ago, we felt our relationship worked because she put God first and I put AA first, now with her crisis of faith it feels uneven)
- There’s the post about 30 Days Cali is talking about.
- There’s the post about my idea for my seminary essay.
- There’s the post on how my new job is kicking up old traumas.
- There’s the post in which I get initiated to the VMB
- There’s the post in how I would love it if Mikey would make the grand gesture of proposing a California marriage but I know she thinks its pointless and it won’t happen and i should just accept it.
- There’s the post about how I reflect on my upcoming milestones: five years since Mikey and I exchanged rings and 11 years since I stumbled hungover into an AA meeting hoping to find the will to live. Both are this Sunday.
- There’s the post on how I am helping to organize Pride events for TWO different organizations.
- There’s the password protected post I may write about an action that I am about to do that while morally right may bring about negative reactions from the public.
- There’s the post on how the major problem in my life is keeping it simple and balanced.
sniff snork gag
Sorry about that it seems I’ve caught a summer cold which is great because the bitch is supposed to make her appearance this week so nothing like being congested and crampy at the same time.
On another note I need a gangsta name. Any ideas?
Done
Home. Burnt. Spent. Soaked. Showered. Fed.
And a thank you to our tour guides. We would have visited longer but I had typed the wrong number and couldn’t reconnect. Ah well another time, Family O!
