Rage about the prop 8 ruling. We went to the rally in nyc Tuesday night where thanks to CBST,I got to carry a cool sign saying God loves Queers. Many people took pictures of me.

Fear as I sit in the waiting room at Big Clinic. The RE I am seeing is nice, a woman,nagged about my weight (I know!) We had a long talk where I explained how lesbians use condoms (!) And the litany of ttc disasters from 2004 to the present. At one point she said that she was reviewing the info “with consternation” because it seems I’ve tried everything and was wondering what I hoped to get out of big clinic. On paper, co culture seems a long shot since I have not made enough embryos to be able to do it.

Clinic is sooo luxurious! Kinda intimidating. RE(I needs a nickname) did an ultrasound and I’m waiting to speak with her. The only thing she mentioned were I have 2 uterine fibroids and an observation about a thin lining. Left ovary was persnickety forcing RE to maneuver the dildocam till I about hit the ceiling

The word: pessimism. She doesn’t have records but from info given I’m in ovarian failure and even the EPP may not be anything that would make a difference. She recommends donor eggs or adoption. Final word when she gets my records