Had a weird reaction. Money’s tight and I begged off dinner after aa mtg and when I called mikey she had hooked up with fruends in the neighborhood and was having dinner with them. And I had this feeling of being left out and wanted to cry. I never feel lik that. Mikey has every right to make plans while I am at my mtg so what gives. They were too far away to meet up with them so I went home had some food and watched tv and I was fine. Confused but fine.
I need more meetings and I need to get back tio my therapist. And I just need to self care. I am providing therapy for the first time in ten years and its kicking my ass and breaking my heart. I like my job but I am spent.
just let yourself feel your feelings, even the left-out ones. i carry a lot of left-out crap on a daily basis and it is a struggle not to let it get me sometimes… and sometimes i just have to be kind to myself and realize some of the old crapola in my life predisposes me to be a little more sensitive to things like that… once i give myself the space to feel whatever, it usually dissipates (sp?)
thinking of you… sendingyou lots of hugs and love…
xo,
gypsy
Sounds like you were having a vulnerable moment. I can totally relate. Sometimes it comes out of nowhere, but maybe it was sitting under a bunch of other stuff, waiting to surface.
You are such a caretaker that it feels like you need some caretaking of your own. Wish I could come over and take you out for a fabulous meal.
xoxo
oh! & then after lunch let’s go try on hats!