- Mother: Therapist thinks its a good idea to demand the right to visit my family and stay in their home. By pure coincidence, my dad decides to call my mom and suggest I take a visit. I was with him. Her response: “Well maybe I can ask Family Friend to put her up and we can sneak the boys out.” Dad: “Who’s paying rent? Who’s the head of the household? Who dictates who enters your house?” No answer. And did I mention since the big drama last May the weekly calls to and from Puerto Rico have gotten fewer and fewer? And since this exchange there hasn’t been any phone calls.
- Interviews Interviews Interviews and nothing nothing nothing. Nothing from temp agencies either.
- A 500$ bill for “back rent” for a man in the can that was left over and promptly forgotten about after IVF #2.
- Dental loan payment, credit card payment, cellphone, groceries, sundries.
- Hair all awkward from growing out and not being long enough to put up and the grays making a reappearance.
- New infection on an old root canal and needing surgery. Three days of head meds left which I’m trying to hold out till it gets REALLY nutty.
- A resurgence of issues with Mikey on Friday involving goals, communication, sex, and quality time. More pleas for therapy; same resistance. One night on sofa and now we are polite and warm yet tense and awkward and so not like ourselves.
- I’m sure I’ve gained weight and am now at my highest.
- Came home sitting next to gagging woman. When woman sitting next to her inquired about her health it was revealed that gagging woman was (wait wait bet you can’t guess) PREGNANT. 20 minute bonding conversation ensues.
- Basically, I am old, fat, depressed, infertile, unemployed with awkward hair, bad teeth with a relaitonship under strain and mounting financial problems.
20
Feb
08
Oh, Sophia, we love you. I love you. I hope that tea party lifts your spirits.
Honey I am sending so so much love your way. Can you set up a paypal acct for us to send some tangible love?
xo
I am so sorry things are so lousy right now. It sucks how life piles it on and then adds some more.
Hang in there. Thinking of you.
I am thinking of you, hon. Will have to play it by ear about this weekend as it is the first one we have to deal with organizing the house and that may end up being all we have time for. But I love you and am happy you are doing it.
Sophia, you were so kind to pm me on rc when i was in overwhelm mode, and i was too stressed/shy to really connect with you. i’m thinking of you. i so relate to the big list of all the crappy difficult things abt money and relationships,medical, job, “the sex talk” etc. and the “just when you think there couldn’t possibly be more..” phenomenon. but it’s clear to me, through what i read here and other places, that you are resourceful and brave and loving. and you know the exact right time to throw a tea party. i’m raising my evening cup of chamomile to you.
t.